I've Got Half a Mind

I’ve got half a mind

to steal my life-

The part I gave away

to love

how it chained me,

captured heart-

Beating to another's

always bleeding

filling someone else's veins.   

I’ve got a half a mind

to take it back, it’s just

too late.

Once I gave it away

it will never find it’s

way home.

Nightsong

Doesn’t it whisper

in the dark

when all is still

beneath frozen foundations?

Leaving ourselves behind

taking another path

we deemed as destiny

blinded by hope-

Dancing with someone else's

shadow, always dreaming

of the one we sacrificed

her song as distant as stars.

How did we ever forget

the words?

What We Have Left Behind

A bloodline mix-
Compassion, fear

 Love

 painful thing

 when objects of affection fall,

 shattering our reflection.

 Ever-changing

 all consuming-

 "Fixed"-

 it’s never the same

 some pieces no longer fit

We discard them,

build anew

and wait for the next storm
inside our fortress-

Only to discover
all things break

We build again

Holding palms to heaven

pleading for strength

to face a different world,

always missing what we

have left behind.

Sun

You burn

right through me-

                         

Bright star of hope-

I am growing thin on promises,

cold in your absence

Digging deep

into a frozen wasteland

always a new beginning rises.

Another past

I leave behind

arms outstretched,

I ask for more.

Insatiable being

time can’t hold back

the desire to shine.

Still the shadows,

lock me in.

Forest of discontent

limbs offering another

stranglehold-

You burn
right through me-

Will I ever be free?

Dark Paradise (Mindlovemisery Prompt 46, Bitter loathing)

Is this what you promised me,

a dark paradise filled with piercing

thorns, bleeding endlessly, anemic

with love?

The pallor of promises,

ghost white in all the lies

in which I strangle a self

never born.

Breathe me in-

Tell sorry to stone,

petrified by empty words.

I will wait all my days

for what I have never tasted.

Dad (For deverse 02/27/14 Character)

Red hair, green eyes

thin frame, heavy

of spirit.

Man of honor

held it in,

suffocating on all

he held back.

Loving someone

who never knew

what that really meant.

Had to save the child

many times from the

loveless world she

tried to escape from,

first with church,

then with young love

turned bitter.

Dad-

Drove an old 55 Chevy pickup

battered, it fit like a glove,

tired, yet still on strong legs

they rode off, always returning

to a place, never a haven, always

choking, heart dying from the

choices which never seemed like

choices at all.

Made a bed, he never could

sleep in with any peace, held

the covers wishing, always wishing.

Dying in that bed, dreams

held tightly as he remembered

how hard he tried.

Mom

I always-

missed you mom

so detached, linked

to a world not mine.

Loving me

was not an option

illness took that away

buried  deep

in a crowd of voices

only you could hear.

I know now

you’re in a different place-

Heaven it’s called and in

the midst of angels

you look down upon me

and remember that you loved me.