Red hair, green eyes
thin frame, heavy
of spirit.
Man of honor
held it in,
suffocating on all
he held back.
Loving someone
who never knew
what that really meant.
Had to save the child
many times from the
loveless world she
tried to escape from,
first with church,
then with young love
turned bitter.
Dad-
Drove an old 55 Chevy pickup
battered, it fit like a glove,
tired, yet still on strong legs
they rode off, always returning
to a place, never a haven, always
choking, heart dying from the
choices which never seemed like
choices at all.
Made a bed, he never could
sleep in with any peace, held
the covers wishing, always wishing.
Dying in that bed, dreams
held tightly as he remembered
how hard he tried.
the first part i read with a pretty heavy heart...its hard to hold it all in...it will eventuallly eat you up...the zoom out on the car is nice...i am glad he had a ride that fit him...even if he never came home to a haven..and the acknowledgement he tried...sometimes that is the best we can do....
ReplyDeleteHe tried to love, though at least it was enough where it was noticeable. The ending broke my heart.
ReplyDeletedying from choices that didn't seem like choices...that leaps out for me
ReplyDeleteI think I see my own father in some of the aspects... especially in the first part... so brutal when you lack the emotional tool... you walk around blind.. this made me think a lot Lisa... thank you.
ReplyDeleteOh wow Lisa this is absolutely heart-wrenching
ReplyDeleteI like this: heart dying from the choices which never seemed like choices at all." Also brought to mind my father but different of course.
ReplyDeleteI really like this poem. Describes a father really nicely, with a very emotionally end.
ReplyDeleteHow emotional this is, went straight to my heart ~ He tried and sometimes we love our Fathers for trying very hard to keep the family going ~
ReplyDeleteSo emotional . . . suffocating on all he held back and those choices that never seemed like choices at all.
ReplyDelete" heart dying from the
ReplyDeletechoices which never seemed like
choices at all."
Read some really powerful poetry here.
this is a beautiful and touching piece. something about "Loving someone / who never knew / what that really meant." really struck a chord with me.
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